&&all i know is, you've got to give me everything nothing less cause, you know i'd give you all of me. i'd give you everything that i am i'm handin' over everything that i've got cause i wanna have a really true love don't ever wanna have to go and give you up. stay up till 4 in the morning and the tears are pourin cuz i wanna make it worth the fight what have we been doing for all this time, babyy if were gunna do it, come on do it right.

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i am nowhere near perfect
i eat when i am bored
im hoping that one day i wont need a fake smile
i live by quotes that explains exactly what im going through
i have bestfriends and enemies
i have drama and memories
i am an average girl

--im just an ordinary girl, who cares most about her hair.
i usually screw things up, and had the most embarassing times in life.
im not perfect and i am what i am, my friends and I do sometimes fight & a day can pass by, lke nothing happened right.
i maybe the kind of girl who cant get over things easily.
who can forgive but can never forget.
who is informed that everyone has their own bad sides && who knows that herself can be a total bitch.
but when i think about it and take a step back I remember how amazing life truly is and that maybe.
which would also remind me that im lucky to be simply imperfect.

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damn , seriosuly . it feels like im drowning . : im drowning of the tears that are uncried inside me . im drowning of the problems that are happening . i'm drowning of tough challenges that im facing . i dont know what to say. you were hiding me from everyone . you cant tell yoru friends about us and i havee NO clue what the reason is. i always think that its because your ashamed of me but you keep on telling me its not because of that . but seriously ? what elsee could the reason be . and i totally understoood that . i dont force you to tell them about us even if im being stuck in the middlee cuz i just see you flirting with your friend who was your ex. and you cant tell'em about us . WOW . i dont know where to put myself in . you dont accept me as your girlfriend but whenever were together , you always kiss and hug mee . but i try to not think that you just want me for my kisses and my hugs but its like your making me think that . and now what, you likee your family friend . and what , you hugged her to warm her up when she was cold . you know what i thoughtt when i knew about that, is that you dont think about me . on the same day that happened , i was suppose to hang out with him , but i didntt becausee i kneww that you dont trust me when it comes to him . i chose to stay home alone just cuzz i dont want you worrying about it . but then what , as soon as you got home from the beach, you told me what you did to her . : and WOw . seriouslyy , tell me right now . do i deserve that from you ? you see , im not tryna rub anything to you, but i want you to understand my point that all i want you to do is to is to worry about me at times likee that and know your limits . what ? you think you can do all that just cuz im not your official girlfriend ? but i tried to let it go, right ? but then you know what , someone just told me that everything that im doing for you is not worth it. and i dont know if i should believe in that or what . i know i madee mistakes , i know im not perfect , but you know what, i try to be the best i can be just for you and for us. but you , you keep on pushing me away . first of all, you can't tell your friends about us . and whenever their around , there's two different you . its like you dont know me at all. the last time that they were at your house you just swore at me just coz i got mad at you because you fully told me that day that you were gunna hang out with your bestfriend matthew but when i saw you , you were with that fucking girl who you picked over me, who totally lied to you when you were together, you were with those peoplee you call your friends which all they do is to control you . remember that day ? you saw me and you fully acted like you didnt know me . but i let it go right . : even if we were talking on the phone and you just suddenly became all bitchy at me . second , you likee your family friend, who you see like almost every single day . likee what the hell am i suppose to do . seriouslyy , im likee a fucking noob lost i a fucking placee that ive never even fcking heard of . i DONT wanna let go . i dont wanna let go of you , of our relationship, dont wanna let go of anything . but its likee i dont know what to fcking do .i lovee you so much and i try evry single thing to prove you that.! but CRAP . im tireddd . im just fully tired .